I'm SO not here.

I'm not here. I'm not reachable. I'm enjoying my consolation prize.

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important.. yeah, right

You know, half of it is just the embarrassment of the whole world finding out that the kids and I don’t mean a damn thing to him.

That 20 years worth of marriage, the fact that I stayed when it sucked because that was in the best interest of my children doesn’t mean shit. I wasn't happy either but I stayed because that was best for the kids. I've suddenly been dumped from 20 years and thinking that was really good into finding out that it apparently wasn’t as good as I thought, that he's happy to risk losing us. I feel horribly un-important right now.

And the time is....

Baghdad

I swear it's my fault...

I just so feel like I've brought this on myself. I was wishing he'd just take the kids and leave so I could do my life over in peace. And now look what I got... He'll be gone but I still can't start over. I still have the kids, I still have this life, and now I'm really stuck here. I never intended to be a single parent, that's why I chose this way. I need to stop wishing for things I shouldn't and just accept this life but I'm so frustrated. I don't want to do it alone, just re-do parts of it.