Soon??

He keeps saying "soon" and I just can't believe it. I'm so scared to mark any kind of date on the calender because if it doesn't happen I'm going to be heartbroken (and so are two little boys). He wants me to apply for a couples retreat in April and even though it sounds like a cool thing and I've filled out all the paperwork I haven't faxed it yet because I just can't get my hopes up. I'm just so scared of the letdown if he doesn't get to come home then. Life is difficult enough to manage right now.
Got a few new pictures of him, this is him with some sort of shell casing (I know, duh!). It just makes my heart ache more.