On the Ground!

He's on the ground in Gulfport!!
It's so cool to be able to just phone him and say i love him :-)

Germany!

Spouse just called from Germany!

Flying again

Today's email from DH: "Friday will be the longest day ever for me and i will be very tired as well things will be high up in the air that day till bed again...!!!!"

So if you want to keep him in your thoughts it appears they will fly out of there this evening (our time) and get to where they're going in the states Friday evening. He'll call me when he gets there.

Homecoming's supposed to be happy...

So why are we fighting?
DH and i are having a bigass fight via email. yeah my life is fun.

My Midlife Crisis

For some reason I've wanted desperately to learn to play guitar for quite some time. So here is my midlife crisis, I suppose as midlife crisis's go it's pretty tame. I'm hoping to be able to learn enough to satisfy that need, because if I can't it's going to end up just looking cool :-)

TWO WEEKS!!

Wow, two weeks and he should be on his way home to the states. Please let it be for good. I was thinking the other day, this is the longest we've physically been apart in 21 years. Twenty-One years is a LONG time. I know this 10 months is only a tiny part of it but it's been SO hard.
About a week after he gets home we're going to a military couples retreat in Texas. It's supposed to have counselors and stuff for us to talk to to try and fix this distance between us. I hope it helps, because I'm tired of being angry and hurt and I'm almost ready to be done with it. We're going to be here:
You know the Dixie Chicks song "Not Ready To Make Nice"? that's me

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything

But I’m still waiting

Gulfport

Am I a bad wife if I dont want to try and go to Gulfport to see him a for a few hours before he comes the rest of the way home? Will he feel unloved? Will I feel bad? Will the kids? They're sending me the info about how to meet up with them there on thier way home but I just think it's silly to spend that much money to go down there. We've already waited 239 days, what's a few more?

Not SuperWoman

I'm not superwoman....I'm just human and I just cant be two people. Everyone seems to think I should just step up and do it all and not break down. I just can't.

NEXT MONTH!

Ok, it's just cool to get to say! NEXT MONTH!
My Spouse could very-well be home NEXT MONTH!
4-5 weeks! Of course they could always change that, but for now they're due home NEXT MONTH!
See a trend here?
NEXT MONTH! Wow, I have a lot of housework to do then.